Who Am I?

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My world has been spinning in circles.

Judging others with just one look.

Forgetting to leave that up to GOD.

Who Am I to say something so unreal that by looking at myself in the mirror and noticing that who I am isn’t real. . . AT ALL!

Who Am I to think I know it all when I don’t know a damn thing.

I have been bless with the power to speak.

I always tend to use it for bad and not for good.

So today I seen a girl crying and with just my soft spoken words she now walks with a smile on her face.

Who Am I to dare someone else into doing something I don’t like.

That’s not me.

NOPE.

Who . . AM. . I?

WHO AM I?

He’s here!

My Cousin/Nephew is finally here!

After my oldest cousin JeLisa wrote an eviction notice on here belly..

 

..and two days in LABOR (OUCH!) he finally arrived!

Welcome Home Zavier Reid Sterling-Smith!

Sick Day #3: A Mothers Touch

My Mom came in my room this morning and sit on my bed waking me up asking do I wanna go to school? Like ALL teenagers I said NO. But I had my reasons. Like any other mother with a heart she knew why and I didnt even have to explain why.

Getting off the bed she walked out my room coming back 5 minutes laters with GROSS medicine and a HUGE cup of Hot Chocolate!   She walked out saying “Feel better and I’ll call you every 2 hours. I love you”

Sigh. All I needed was a Mother’s Touch.

Transforming from a Child to a Young Lady.

Dear Mother,

You took me in when I was just a new born. You tried to keep me in church. And that was the most best thing you could’ve ever did. Now I know where to turn when my life is flipped upside down or when I need to give thanks, and that is most def* GOD himself. You even bought me beautiful things I never even thought of asking for. Kept me in a private school for my childhood life and then a charter school through junior high. Boy do I thank you because I love school. — but. .Our record player keeps playing soft and slow melody. But then it stopped and sped up. That’s when high school hit.  I started to see this dramatic change. Our relationship started to drift apart. Then I realized I was going through that . . “Teenage Stage”. So I decide to slow down the record. Lately we’ve been agruing over little things. My outfits, Dishes, my additude. But we mainly agrue about College. I feel that you don’t want me to leave. You want me here stuck in Los Angeles, California like all these other low-Lifes, no class having people! Sigh. (Sorry to those who fit that description but that’s just how I see it.) I was thinking to myself one night, maybe your afraid of letting me go. You want me to stay a little girl forever. Why can’t you just let that little girl go and except the fact that I transformed from a child to a young lady? How does that saying goes? A bird has to leave the nest to learn to how fly. (Correct me if I’m wrong, please)

Well, mom. I’m that bird and I’m asking you to let me spread my wings and learn how to fly. I bet I’ll be a darn good one too. aha. I’ll be taking off soon. I’ll always love you. I’ll still be your little girl. Like when I’m sick, a husband can’t take care of his wife like a mother can. Or when I need that girly bond, I can’t talk to my friends the way I talk to you. Just know that you were a great mother and I seriously hope to be one just like you!.

                            Muah,
                                        Valencia.

Starting 2011 with a BANG!

 First thing first. .

Ashley Birthday

On January 1, 1993 a beautiful baby was born. Going by the name of Ashley Jones. Being on earth for now 18 years has seriously blessed all of are hearts. Loving for God,  Captain of her drill team, Singer and Songwriter, and interest in playing the piano. Watching her grow into the beautiful and amazing young lady she is, Ashley  will be graduating in the next few 6 months and I will be there front row and center to be the witness of her accomplishment and high school goal! — BUT before we move too fast lets just stay on the night of her birthday where she spent it with her friends and family (ME OF COURSE LOL) lets take a look shall we:

A little refreshing. .

Ashley and her Big Brother Marcel (. . and boy was he on her case with them boys)

Me and Brandon having a camera battle at the table {. . Pretty Professional Right? lol}

After all that I was happy that I got to spent my new years with my lovely cousin on her birthday! I hope being 18 wont change anything about her! If so I’m gonna have to keep her in check Just Kidding.

iLOVEYUH!

Dear Cousin,

As I watched you grow up, you being the oldest and I being the youngest. You were always a role model in my eyes. We told eachother everything from boys to our lame clumsy falls. We have always been eachothers favorite cousins, but we grown so close we called eachother sisters. I can always tell when something is bothering you, you could ALWAYS tell when something was bothering me. (You were always good at that.)  Now were older, your in your last year of High School and I’m in my second to last year.

  Over the past few months my eyes have seen you change but in my mind and heart I knew something was wrong and for some reason you wouldnt tell me. During those pass few months you ended up telling me. Last night I thought you were changing (random laugh) but then I notice:

Sometimes people you know ,change but then sometimes they might be going through something that take them out of their normal ways.
-Valencia Monroe.

                        Love your cousin,
                                       Valencia

 

Junior Year, Birthday, and Journalism?

 bIRTHDAY! YEAAH

Hey everyone!  Now I know I havent been blogging in like… some YEARS! I been super busy with work, dance, blah blah. Now you guys know I had a birthday Sept 1. And, let me tell you it was amazingly wonderful! Now I have pictures, but right now I can’t post them. {don’t worry soon they will come} Here’s a list of things that I knew I was going to get and things I don’t know was getting:

• Clothing
• Lots of clothing lol

THINGS I DIDNT KNOW I WAS GETTING:

• Computer {Laptop} Thanks Mom you-you the best I ever had! LOL.
• A bottle of hot sauce! {a big one too!} Yeah my best friend is a little to crazy for me.
• And some anonymous  love card!

 I loved all my gifts, I’m truly thankful to have a lovely family and weird secret lover? lol. 

Tell 'em why you mad son!

A few days after my birthday I spent time with my bestfriend, my bestfriend Husband , and my cousin! Ashley, Judith, and LeLahni! We all headed down to Santa Monica City, and walked down the 3rd Street Promenade looking cute lol. Especially my cousin Ashley.  She a straight up model bay-bee! aha. We all stopped at mcDonald (uggh hate that place with a passion!) It was the cheapest place out there man. So I just got some fries. After that are some what dinner, we were walking again. We went inside fifty million stores, which I truly looooved!— My bestfrind Judith was having a BF! (for those who don’t understand B*&^tch Fit) She couldn’t decide if she should get a shirt or tank top lol! So she just got the sweater. After that we headed down to the movies! MY FAVORITE PART OF THE STORY! OK! So we went to go see “The Last exorcism!” (think I spelled it wrong but who cares!) That movie was not scary! Ashley and LeLahni was scared out of there minds! aha me and Judy just sat  back and laughed at the whooole thing! It wasnt even scary! So after the movie we went heading back to walking around stores and junk until my mommy came got us!

Gotta love SoCAL! I’m a rep! ayeeee

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 Junior Year! 

 I start my junior year next week on Sept.13 {hey hey guys, lets mark that calendar for a reminder lol} and I believe it’s going to a blast! I got lot of new clothes {Dresses and flowery skirts lol} and new everything! This year is very Important to me, because everything counts for college: Grades, attitude, Leadership, SAT, ACT, my integrity, my care for school, and all that extra stuff. Now, the clubs I been thinking about joining are: Journalism {oh yes!} , Poetry Club, Swim polo? {aha it’s a black girl thing},  Leadership, Honor Society, and VISUAL ARTS!   I been trying to do honors for a long time and now here’s my chance, I’m taking Honors Algebra 2, Honors English. Okay, now I want to AP English BUT I can’t cause, I’ve to finish the last AP English Summer Assignment! Which I Was soooo close with that, I just needed a boring book that cost 50 dollars, yeah yeah I got a job but booo I don’t want to spend my money on some school book! lol {Sorry I sound waaay to spoiled right there let me rephrase that!} I don’t want spend money on a book that cost 50 dollars and during the school year they should’ve gave the new AP students that book. So I blame that  so called teacher maaan! So now when I go back I’m going to give them what I, the test, and some what beg way into that class lol! WISH ME FREAKING LUCK LOL!

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jOURNALiSM?

I have got low-self esteem this summer about my writing! As I was writing for this magazine called Celebrity High, my editor took  me thru hell and back! Like why she gotta be so mean? So what I’m saying is my first article I wrote she literally dissed me! Like wow lady damn! I’m a teenager trying to understand the whole concept of it all. You know the whole full experience of being a writer for a magazine, and let me tell you, I got that full experience! I had two articles and a poem to write! So what’s the problem? The problem is that it seemed like I been cheated out of my work. DON’T twist my words around, I love Celebrity High, it’s just that when I write my work, my piece of art; I like to take my time with things. Not “Oh sh***T let me hurry and do this and let me hurry and  get my resource.” No that’s a no-no in my book. I don’t need people down my back rushing and puffing! lol. I’m done…. If you didn’t understand this part of my blog, well read it again! because I can go on and on!

 

“I think sometimes people are hard on you because they know you have talent and all they can do is teach. Other times they are hard on you because they see the talent and they want you to do better” -Tom Baker

 I like that quote by Tom, and he’s right. MAYBE she noticed I was a great writer and was just pushing me because she know I be an excellent writer. But one thing for sure I know I’m good writer! I’m in training right now! Oh and I’m writing a book look out for it in stores near you! ttyl’s!

                                                                                 Smooches! lol

When that number hit.

I think that being 16 shouldn’t change anyone as a person. All my friends told me their stories about turniing 16 and how they change their ways and stop talking to certain a person cause their on a new level.

Okay!? So what. I feel that age is nothing but a number it doesn’t make who you are. And I don’t want to change anything about myself. I love being myself, goofy, funny, random, loving, caring, and a child of GOD. I feel that you might mature but it shouldn’t change you as a whole person.

So me turning 16 might be a big deal to my mother because I’m growing into a young woman (lady? Which one sounds better?) and others. But to me, turning 16 is another blessing from god. I’m glad to be another age and to see another year in life. I’m very thankful you can say. Lol. Aha.

2 lucky games of Madden10 and Cereal in a Cup?

Okay there are 3 stories that are funny to me and somewhat lame. Lol but here it goes:

Photo# 1: My brother Jajuan decides he wants to play me in Madden 2010 and talk a lot of SMACK saying he was going to whoop me. But me being a very competitive person, started talking smack back! Little did he know he had it. Comin’ by the 2nd quarter of the game mouths were shut, eyes glued to the flat screen, and pretty sure trying to figure out the best plays to play. The forth quarter hit, he was upset that I was winning he was losing. When the game was over I shouted in joy. Lol. He started saying how he let me win and this and that (you know how boys get when they get beat by a girl hm um lol)

Photo #2: After last night game of Madden10 and defeating my little brother, he wanted to get another round in. So I played along with him; now I was determine I was going to win. But at the same time I really didn’t care because I smoked him the first time. Touchdowns after touchdown I was ahead he was behind. He caught up in the 3rd quarter. Even though he injuried almost all my players, I still manage to keep the game in tack. By the forth quarter he won by 3pts!!! Lol. Only 3. I’m still the bomb!

Oh and today was my day to wash the dishes. I was really procrastinating to get them done. I have my reasons! I been working very hard. I been making lesson plans, ordering dance wear, and making sure all my dancers are in tack for this school year. Which all of that has to at least finished by next week on august 23! Uggh. But yeah.

Anyways, I really wanted some good ole cereal but only thing that was clean was cups, forks, and spoons. So I went with a cup and spoon which really did the trick lol.

But goodnight, its 2 something in the morning and I have to be at work in like the next 5hrs! Uggh. I needs my moneeeeey. Lol.

Happy Sunday and finding myself!

Today was a great Sunday, the sun was shining, the trees were talking, and the birds were singing. It was also Womens Day at my church, they all had to wear red. {Uggh I’m upset that, I didn’t get any type of media what so ever, but trust me they were looking cute. Lol}

Its seemed like today was the best Sunday in the whole wide world. my smile got wider, my words were getting clearer, and my pastor was talking me into joining the choir and of course I was agreeing with him and told him I’ll join the youth choir.

Oh, I found my true self with these words I came up with to describe myself and I think I’m going to stay that way:

“I can be crazy, weird, moody, funny, have my dumb moments, “LAUGH OUT LOUD” when nothings funny. So friggin what! Its fun being me! living life is what I do. Get with the program homie!”

Because its true. Lol. I love myself, I can’t wait til one day I can share it with someone just like me! my husband of course!