I’ve been through the death stage. I’ve went through hell and back. I felt lonely. I’ve been in the dark, but yet still had the Lords light. I’ve seen and heard cries. I felt my angels pick me up and put in reality. {Thanks guys, but please don’t do that again. Okay?} I witness thousands of crimes. But I’m still taking this journey step-by-step.
You can say, my journey looks like crap right? I wanna say that too. But its not that it looks like crap, the point is it is “crap!” I’m thankful it’s that way.
Now, what I can say is that, God is doing this for a reason and having a good time too. But I’m not. I’m gonna say he’s giving me a test to see where would I go; would I turn to him or turn to the other side of my journey. And, sadly to say I been going to the other side! 
I don’t like that side. I lost track of my journey. This is what happening right now, yes right now:
I see the lords hand at the end of all my troubles, he’s there with comfort, peace, lots of love, and nothing but smiles. I look down that road and I like what I see. So I take off running, like pastor Scott says “moving forward.” As I’m running I made a mistake, I looked back. Now I’m a track star, they have always told me to never look back while on the track field, it’ll slow you down. As I looked back I seen satan, all of my troubles, and his crew. I started to slow down. They caught up to me and grabbed me by the leg and I fell to the ground. Now I have bruises all over me, I’m trapped by the devils vines, that arose from the the ground. I been down there what seem like days, but its only been a second.
Not looking back, to see what’s going on. I looked up and seen the lords open hands still. Something whispered in my ear and it said “I know that I have not yet reached that goal, but there is one thing I always do. Forgetting the past and straining toward what is ahead, I keep trying to reach the goal and get the prize for which God called me through Christ to the life above.”- Philippians 3:13-14. After I heard that, I don’t know what had happen, I gathered the strength and broke threw satans trap and put everything behind, and ran down the road but which really felt like I flew to Gods loving hands.
I’m thankful to be with the Lord our savior in Christ. I’m thankful to go down that rough journey. I’m thankful to be a witness of christ and it’s all time healing. 
I’m very thankful. With all that said, this is my journey and I’m taking it step-by-step, even when the bad times come I won’t solve it myself, I’ll leave with God. All I have to do is step out of his way and let him do his thuggtizzle. Lol. Just kidding. I’ll let him do his thing. love you guuyys!
